sometime i ask myself.. why bother???

For the past few weeks.. something have been bothering me.. i'm thinking.. why should i bother about those junior that isn't really to train and listen so much? like.. for what.. told them a couple of time don't be late for training and come at least 15min early.. is it really so hard.. during school days maybe they can come early but what about during the holiday?

I know what coach want and i tried to pass them the message but what do i get.. people that only think about themselves say why i get angry over such small thing.. in the first place.. i told them in a nice way not scolding.. just that i keep telling them whenever they never do it.. i might be wrong.. wrong in the sense.. bothering about them too much..

some of them just think that it's noting wrong to be rushing in when we're about to warm up and rushing in when we do warm up half way.. all they care is about themselves only.. have they think about how coach feel when seeing this? of cos a lot of things happen this few week. coach got upset, i myself feel upset too.. giving up on them.. as a senior and someone older than them, i feel the right to guide them well but seem like.. i'm just being too kapo..

from now on, i'm not going to bother about them, be it they change or not. It's no longer my problem.. my poly life going to end in less than 4 months time all i care is coach.. will i still be able to keep in touch with him and stuff..

he's my first coach or rather a mentor and a very good friend that willing to give advise and guide me to life.. no one will spend half an hour or more telling you something that is useless.. i don't understand why do people will to tell coach that he nag too much.. they're just not giving him the respect. I can't say thing between me and him flood smoothly.. of cos there is time where i think this and that but after i think over it... how wrong can he get...

Some people are just too selfish that they only think about themselves, did you put yourself in other people shoe and think? isn't it the right way to think that way.. everything take 2 hand to clap.. there is always a left and right.. everyone have the right to think this way and that.. is how willing are you going to sit down and think about it...

i guess.. it's time that i focus on my training till my mind is clear.. too many thing upsets me.. just too many.. sometime i might look ok but i'm not.. it's just that i don't chose to say or show it out..